feeling suck now... talk a lot with doro sis.. she gave me lots of advices.. make my process of thinking more.. smooth? idk.. i was hopping blog you know.. den just then i saw this blog.. lols.. and that make me make the decision. i hate my own personality.. why must i keep letting other ? but still i cant change my personality.. and thinking the future.. if u and me tgt.. there sure a lot of obstacles.. i dw u to stress out or chg cos of them.. i can imagine what will happen.. and i cant let that happen.. and now i am kinda regret sending u the msg.. but what to do.. there are many good guys waiting for you.. and i hope i can see de side of urs that i din see b4. everyone have double sides.. i wish to see ur other side.. and i really hope really really you will be happy.. to tell u , i had already 4get the past and can just accept u back.. but.. smth is stopping me.. yea smth.. doro tell me it will stings if i love you but still let u go and watch u aside.. and yea.. i feeling the stings now..i will love you for as long as i live...wanted to call u baobei again... but.. dk why.. that same thing stopped me again... perhaps i dont deserve u . u deserve someone who can be ur side .. and that guy.. is already waiting for you right now.. i know..even if u dont tell me.. seriously.. miss you to the max.. even when yst talk to u.. iam thinking of how to start a conv with u... i acted so weird.. that i surpise myself too.. i dont wish the conv to end yst..really dont wish.. i got the feeling that it may be the last few conv we are gg to have... i afraid.. so much.. i am just timid, a mouse.. sigh...