2 weeks le. Been so long since i update this blog. No one seeing anyway. A lot of things running within my mind these few days. Some of my lost memory , had returned to me. "Is that so?" is the qn when some memory came back. Argh. Messy . Maybe going crazy soon. Sigh. The feeling of lonely seem to be have gone after JJ came. But sometime there still bit of loneliness. Lonely one of the worst feeling I experienced . Who din experienced it before? I think there will be a time where one experience it. I don't want to go back to those times .... That why trying hard to cherish my close ones. But sometime , i just forget to cherish .  I know we cant have anything forever, but i tried to grab it in my hand as long as i can. Wanting it to stay for a longer period of time. I'm thinking what if one day i lose everyone and everything? What will I do? be? feeling? It like falling down to darkness and desperation trying to get help , but there just no one...  Such familiar feeling. Lols. Sometime things leave unknowing without giving any notice..I had forget what to write since i wrote half way yesterday.

My feelings all come out at one go yesterday...So much of sorrow of the past few days ..coming out .. Thought i could suppress it, but i think there's a limit to it. Wanted to take a walk but couldn't. In the room. Just what else i can do.  Those memory came back to me... with me at this state... Painful . Just what the feeling of jumping off a cliff. Make a little wish yesterday, to have a little sleep. But it still din work, no matter how i try, i couldn't sleep. ... Changed. Maybe is i caused you to change. Cos me, you had to suffer in many circumstances . Maybe if that din happen, you wont change. Maybe you will be much more happier den now. I am to be blame for it. I am neither humorous nor understanding. Cant make u happily talk to me...