These few days , i felt like i was changing... more to the "evil" side. I'm wondering when and why did i become this. Selfish, Jealously , Doubting , Greed and etc etc .. are like coming to me with more and more amount of them. Perhaps it's my thoughts that make them come. I started to be afraid of myself when i think about it. I didn't want to be this type of people. I think it's time that i calm myself down and has some serious thoughts if i want to get back my old-self. Understanding is one of things that i am lack of now.. I'm going to get it back.
It wasn't a good sleep last night. Nightmare after nightmare, making me repeating awake . I know it was the thoughts of mine that these nightmares occur. So I just have to think less of such things. I had also realise that due to these thoughts, i had acted or perhaps response wrongly to people. Sorry to those people, especially baobei. The response i gave you was bad ... I will change my way of view point on matters and perhaps less of such things will happen. And , yay? It's my turn now to be sick. sorethroat and cough. These few days, i also keep laughing to myself ;eeks. Baobei should know why ;lala.
Ending this post with : Cherish is the word that i use for me towards you now.