i went to a high point , and i want to climb higher. But i fall. Fallen to a low point  for my grave mistake i made. My fear had come true... and it wasn't anyone fault , it was mine own fault. Trying to cherish but in the end it was me myself destroy it. After so many things happen, and i still had not learn my lesson. Stupid of me. Say will not allow anyone to hurt u, but in the end, it was me who hurted you. Maybe i just dont deserve you... Wasn't there for you. Using that i'm oversea  shouldn't be an excuse anymore. Just this two reasons were enough for me to hate myself. I failed . Maybe in the first place, i shouldn't be at that place. Maybe i should have just stand aside and watch you from there ... in the end, i am back to a square one. tot i could grab it hold it tight, but in the end it still slip through my hand... Has it come to an end...? is it time for the promises i made to u to crash into pieces ? I could say lots of sorry but i know... sorry wont make things right. sorry wont turn back time ... This time i am the bastard , not you .
Having those silly thoughts yesterday. Seems so funny when i think about it now. i should go fix the wall that i make a hole on it ba ...